A Mom of 2

I've been thinking a lot lately about life as a mom of 2. Now that Carson and Camilla are back in school I get to spend my days with my 2 youngest. And can I make a confession? I love it, like lots. I finally have Spencer on a great schedule and we just have so much fun. I told Aaron the other day that I really feel like I could have been a good Mom to 2 kids. I know that sounds dramatic but you know those moms. The ones where you are like oh she is such a good Mom. I feel like that kind of Mom when I have my 2 littles. We go on adventures, take walks, see the library, and go to the park. We read books, tell stories and play pirates outside. We run errands somewhat peacefully and the fits are very minimal. We bake cookies and muffins and laugh, a lot. The house stays pretty clean and Brooke handles Spencer's craziness very well. 

Playing pirates, we were fighting off the bad guys with pool noodles. 

These two love to play in the backyard. They dig, swing on the swing, play with the rocks and jump on the trampoline. 

They get pretty dirty so they take a lot of sink baths together to get clean. 

They love it. 

We love our relaxing walks. I can keep up with 2 kids pretty easily.  

But then my older 2 come home from school and chaos ensues. :) The house is suddenly a mess of crafts and books are everywhere. It is loud and the pantry and refrigerator are raided. Everyone starts asking me for dinner, after school activities are all over the place, and it just feels crazy. I feel my stress level slowly start to rise and it stays pretty high until my kids are in bed. It is something I am working on and trying to get better at but mostly I just try to remember that 4 kids is a lot. Life is busy, my kids are young and the most important thing I can do is give them my time and love. I tend to be the parent who is constantly telling my kids what they should be doing. They notice. I am trying to remember they are trying their best and things don't always need to be done on my time table. And I am trying to not make situations that don't need to be stressful, stressful. Its a process. I have small things I am doing each day to try to be better. Life with kids is all about phases, nothing lasts forever and I want to soak up this time more than I do. I know Camilla won't want to come home from school and climb in my lap and tell me every, single detail of her day for forever and that Carson won't strip down to his undies and read for hours for the rest of his life. Focusing on the blessings helps me and I hope to continue to improve. That's what life is all about right? :)